Alone

The truth be it

I am alone

There are people around me

But I am alone

My journey of life

it’s destiny chiseled by me

The people around me

teaching me lessons

Some good and some bad

But that’s life and how it goes

I don’t know what this world holds for me

But I am here following its path

Daily we forget to remind those around us how important they are

We could save a life

Surely they would have known

How important they are

But they don’t

Let’s not wait till one passed

To share how much we love them

Or how much they mean to us

It could just be too late

Let’s be grateful

And not be shy

But be brave with what we feel

And not be afraid to love and care

It’s not often openly shared

But what shame is there if we could save a life

Sometimes I wonder whether I should of told kanna how much he meant to me

Maybe he would still be here if I had

But nothing can bring him, if only

But who would think that I would lose a younger brother.

He wasn’t just any brother

He was the best

I feel lost with emotions

Maybe because it’s his birthday month

9th October your birthday Kannan

And 10th October mental health awareness day

A recent talk I prepped for

And again I face the emotions

I have to fall apart to be whole again and it’s healthy to be this way.

But why are these emotions difficult

Not just difficult but complex

I wish I knew what to do about it

I know I can’t fight it

But one thing I can do is to allow myself to have space to fall apart and feel whole again

That’s where this writing helps me

As it gives me an avenue for release.

To be honest and share how I feel

So that I heal a part of me that I didn’t know needed healing

It is so important that I allow myself to find these parts and to reflect to help myself

So that it doesn’t startle me in life but sometimes we can’t control when memories come and the pain that comes with it

I guess life just carries on and we need to be strong enough to feel to heal and not deny those feelings that are part of me and be ready for the next challenges of life that life throws at me.

Nothing phases me as much as what happened and because of what I have been through my mind has become open to most things in life and to be accepting of wider concepts to trust that happiness is different to each one of us and there are no judgements here.

Written a few days ago from your big sister Aranee